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Aku pernah rasa yang lebih teruk dari ini
Lalu aku mampu kawal hati
Mampu kawal minda
Supaya tak patah semangat
Tersungkur, lelah tak mampu bangun.
Bahaya.
Terima kasih untuk harapan yang singkat itu.
Paling paling aku tahu hati ini masih berfungsi.
Cerita semalam :) Hajat hati nak tengok teater geng TESL Shah Alam. Tak sangka kot ramai yang turun. Hehe. So happy to see those familiar faces again!
Dalam gembira, ada jugak emotional moment terjadi pada diriku. hikhik. Sebenarnya zaman asasi taklah begitu best terhadap aku. Jadi bila 'kenangan' tu bermain kembali dalam kepala hotak aku ni, memang nangislah jawabnya. Zaman asasi adalah zaman aku tercampak sorang-sorang, zaman aku menjadi sangat kerdil, penakut sebab takde sesapa untuk backup aku kat sana (sebelum ishmah masuk). Tengok masing-masing ambik gambar sesama ngan kengkawan yang diorang rapat masa asasi, sape yang tak touching, ye dak? Awak dok sesorang jadi pemerhati je. Huhu.
Tapi tu cerita sedih la. Yang bestnya kitorang dapat lepak sesama. Rindu kot, lama sangat tak jumpa. Lepas makan lepak Uptown pulak. Cerita tak best, ada kedai pet ni, aku masuk sambil tengok sekeliling, takut ada ular ke lelabah ke. Hee aku geli lah ngan mende alah ni. Pastu akak yang jaga tu boleh pulak acah kat aku cakap 'adik nak try pegang tak? nah ular', padahal tangan dia kosong je. Aku pun jerit ahh, apa lagi kan nak buat, 'akak, jangan! Saya takut ular!' terus peluk Yuppie dan keluar dari kedai itu. Trauma dah nak masuk walaupun ada arnab comel TT^TT
Rekod baru balik UPM pukul 5 pagi. Nasib lah takde pape kan, Alhamdulilah selamat. Hehe.
Misunderstanding.
Perkara yang selalu berkaitan dengan salah sangka.
Lagi-lagi bila mulut gatal taknak bertanya.
Teringat pengalaman aku dulu.
Masa tengah frust sokmo dan sedang membenci sorang minah ni (masa tu),
aku luahkan dekat dalam blog ni,
alih-alih orang lain pulak terasa. Heh.
Tak pasal-pasal orang lain terasa,
tapi mungkin salah aku jugak,
sebab masa tu pon alu tengah tak ok dengan orang yang terasa tu.
Seiring dengan kemajuan kita hari ni,
masalah ni pon ikut sama memajukan dirinya, eh,
dari Facebook ke Twitter,
pastu ke Blogger pulak.
Maka dapatlah kita lihat banyak manusia zaman sekarang ni kuat sentap.
Selain kuat sentap, turut kuat membalas balik jugak.
Tak paham aku, kenapa nak sentap sangat?
Macamlah anda sorang je manusia dekat dunia ni,
Manalah tahu si Polan bercakap tentang kawan dia yang masa sekolah dulu ke,
Musuh dia kat luar negara ke..
Come on lah, kalau dah salah tu takyahlah nak beritahu satu dunia maya lah kan?
HAHA
Kalau masalah salah paham je takpe,
ni sampai jadi bergaduh macam orang tak cukup akal je,
kan lebih baik berdiam diri, daripada memaki,
Api dengan Api, makin maraklah jadinya. Tak gitu?
Kyaa~ I'm so excited now, as I met this one Japanese guy (his an exchange student studying forestry) during our annually college event. The day before, one of my friend, Yuppiee told me bout how she met this one Korean guy named Roh Min Seop, which came to Tuah with his Japanese friend. And Yuppiee got to talk to Roh using Korean Language! hahaha. So jealous, my japanese is all over the place TT^TT
So, the next day, I met these two guys at Jebat. I wanna say "Hi" to the Japanese guy, but I'm too shy and luckily one of my junior called him. She said, "hey Ryuu, come here, she wants to befriend with you,". I was like, whaaaat..Hahaha when he stands besides me, both of us just laugh because it's kinda awkward. Bhahaha XD
To start with, I ask his name, and he only gave me his short name, Ryuu (his English is good!). And I told him mine, Alin (he pronounced it correctly ^^). Then I told him my passion to go to Japan and bout my great grandmother who also a Japanese, hehe. He shocked a little and said, "owh, that's why you look a lil bit like Japanese" Hahaha I just laugh, oh man, I'm so excited to met this guy, only Allah knows (>//<)
So, he live in Nagano, Japan. I google for Nagano and the results are beautiful!
:: Shiga Kogen ::
:: Nagano ::
He did mentioned that Nagano is a place with mountains sceneries..I'm imagining while he's explaining. Hehehe. Then I asked him about Hokkaido, one of the place for seafood lover. He asked me how I know bout it, and I said I watched it in Japanese Drama. He asked which drama did I watched, and I told him it's Nodame Cantabile. Haha, he likes the drama too!
:: Nodame Cantabile :: Gyabou (>//<)
I found his facebook and we friends now. I hope I can see him around and know him more. At least, if I go to Japan someday, I have someone to seek for guide bout the places there. Who knows :P
p/s: I told him bout my dream to go to Japan in spring time and eating Sushi under those blooming cherry blossoms (>//<)
So, I went out today and watch a movie. The title is MAMA, and it's a horror story. I watch it with a friend plus 3 ex-schoolmates that we met at the cinema :)
So, basically, this movie is about two siblings (girls), Victoria and Lilly, that were kidnapped by their own father after he killed two colleagues and his wife, to a forest. he planned to kill these two innocent daughters of his, but unfortunately, he was attacked by an unknown "thing". The kids became a feral children and were raised by the "thing", however, their uncle, Lucas, kept looking for them. After 5 years, they were found and cared by their uncle and his girlfriend, Annabelle. The kids, at first, did not get along with Annabelle, but after a while, Victoria started to accept Annabelle, but told her that she didn't want Annabelle to get hurt. The doctor who treated them found out that these kids had an imaginary carer, called "Mama", but after doing research, he found out that "Mama" is exists. The question is, who is "Mama" and what "Mama" wants from the kids?
The story was suspense, but because I watched it at cinema, the dark surrounding made the film look darker. The ending was shocking, and I only screamed once during the whole story. But, it still scary story to watch by yourself.
Sekarang tengah panas pasal isu Sharifah Zohra versus Bavani.
Still, aku kena replay video banyak kali and buat kajian sikit, yelah, nak tengok betul ke fakta-fakta yang dikemukakan, sebab aku bukan orang yang rajin ambil tahu pasal dunia luar. hikhik.
Tapi, aku rasa konfius jugak, kenapa tiba-tiba keluar isu animal rights, pastu terus kait ke human rights pulak? Hmm, musykil2.
Kalau korang belum tengok dan nak tahu kebenda lah yang aku dok bebel kat atas, bolehlah menonton video di atas.
aku pon nak sambung tengok balik. Tak boleh judgemental, dan kita perlu ada pendapat sendiri tanpa campur tangan pihak ke-3, baru boleh bincang betul ke tak.
p/s: aku rasa kecewa dengan pelajar-pelajar UUM lain yang dok sibuk tepuk tangan. Ntah tahu ke tidak apa yang dok dibincangkan.
Just some random quiz I took from my friend's blog. And here the answer, I am an oatmeal~ I don't know whether it's true, only my closed friends knew. Here's the link if u wanna try :D Breakfast Quiz
Oatmeal
You're oatmeal! You are a great friend who is always there when people need you; even if they haven't thought to spend time with you in a while, they know that you can always pick up where you left off! You aren't the most popular person around, but those closest to you know your value. You are just more of an acquired taste! You are more likely to hang out in a small, tight-knit group of friends than go to wild, loud parties. That's just not you! You are generally a more quiet, subdued person who enjoys curling up with a good book.
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia baik bagimu" (Al-Baqarah, 216) "Baramgkali kamu tidak menyukai sesuatu, padahal Allah menjadikan padanya kebaikan yang banyak" (An-Nisa, 19)
I've been very fragile lately, crying a lot, everytime I think about my unfinished job, which I tend to procrastinate and in the end put me in problems. It's nearing the D-Day.
I just realize that my mind has a very bad habit, shutting down the whole unit of my body when I faced or given with the job or things I hate.
I know, as a human being, as a muslim, responsibility is a very IMPORTANT thing that you MUST do whatever it takes. It is sinful to just do it idle-ly, or to ignore it completely.
I feel myself changing to a different "me". Ermm, how can I put this in words? Aish, nevermind.
I feel a bit disappointed too tho. The friend that I put hope to see this holiday, perhaps, don't even remember about me. She's hoping for her best-friend to come back after final exams, not me. *I saw it in Facebook*
For some time, I'm thinking, is it me or them, that have problem? Maybe it's me, I guess.
My positive energy has drained out, I can't help but to think pessimistically.
I'm sorry for this negative post. I'm sorry :'(
But, still, I hope there's blessings in disguise for this part of my life. I will never take any responsibilities that me myself cannot cope up. I wanna live my life in my own way. In Shaa Allah.
Bulan 4 yang lepas, genap umur aku masuk 20 tahun.
*tarik nafas dalam-dalam*
Tak sangka aku dapat hidup sampai 20 tahun lamanya, dan tengah dalam perjalanan nak masuk 21 tahun.
Dulu, eh bukan, tahun lepas, masa umur 19 tahun, aku kerja kejap dekat tempat lama aku dulu.
Sekali dengan Kak Shima, kawan masa kerja pertama kali dulu..
Aku selalu jugak nampak kak Shima termenung, kadang-kadang mengeluh, lagi-lagi kalau cerita pasal masa depan, kawen...
Aku pelik jugak sebenarnya (muda lagi kan, 19 baru), pastu tanyalah dekat kak Shima, kenapa?
Jawapan dia, aku ingat sampai sekarang, dan mungkin sampai bila-bila, sebab aku tengah melalui apa yang dia rasa masa tu.
Dia kata,"alin, masuk umur 20 tahun ni lain rasanya. nanti kalau alin dah masuk umur 20 nanti, alin tahulah kenapa,"masa tu aku buat endah tak endah je, siap gelak-gelak lagi kan. hahaha.
Nak tau apa lainnya dengan umur 20 tahun ni?
Bila masuk umur 20 tahun, kau dah mula fikir pasal kahwin, dan kaum berlainan jantina.
Dan lagi menambahkan gelora di jiwa ialah bila kau mula nampak post dari kawan-kawan sebaya kau,
yang diorang nak bertunanglah, nak nikah minggu depanlah, nak kawen tahun depanlah,
sedangkan korang baru 20 tahun, dan korang single pulak tu. EHEH.
DenaBahrin :: satu contoh yang memberi kejelesan di dalam hati...
Ye, ye, aku dah rasa, sebab tu aku berani cakap.
Dan hari ni, aku dapat tauanak kepada kawan ayah aku, yang sebaya aku, dah nak kawen tahun depan.
What?? =_=''
Tergugat jugak. Hewhewhew. *manelah mr.Right aku pergi nih*
Sebagai seorang perempuan yang normal, keinginan tu ada beb. Nak jugak ada mr.Husband, takpun en.Boipren ke kan, tapi bila fikir-fikir balik, eh, tunggu, aku ada banyak impian tak capai lagi, kenapa perlu tergesa-gesa kan? *ayat pujuk hati, HAHA*
I mean, hey, baru 20 tahun lah, takde apa perlu dirisaukan, lainlah kalau dah menginjak 30 tahun, tu memang perlu risau.
Bila malam-malam aku pejam mata, mengelamun sorang-sorang, satu-satu impian aku muncul dalam kepala.
Nak travel seluruh dunia lah, nak bukak tadika dan nursery lah, nak bukak kedai buku dan bakeri lah, nak bawak mak ayah jalan-jalan dengan pergi Mekah, eh, banyaklah lagi. Tak larat nak tulis semua. Dan yang paling penting, aku belum dapat nak berbakti kepada ibu bapa lagi. Yelah, sebab I kan belajar lagi U~
:: moga tercapai, aamiin ::
Jadi, buat individu-individu yang memiliki masalah ini, ku ingin pesan, pertama, jangan nak tergesa-gesa sangat, orang lain sibuk nak kawen, awak pun nak kawen jugak. Sesungguhnya kawen itu sangatlah besar tanggungjawabnya, bukan sekadar grand wedding mahupun honeymoon dekat luar negara, lagi-lagi buat kita yang beragama Islam ini. Kedua, kalau bergelora sangat hati tu, ingatlah wajah ibu dan ayah kita di rumah, ingat balik apa yang kita dah bagi kat mereka, sepanjang hidup dekat dunia ni. Dan akhir sekali, ingatlah, jodoh itu di tangan Allah, apa-apa silalah kembali ke pangkuan-Nya. Sesungguhnya Allah jualah yang mengatur perjalanan hidup ini. Mintalah kepada-Nya. Jangan dilupakan.
Yep, Injection aka suntikan.
Daripada sabtu lepas dua-dua tangan dan kaki aku kena gatal-gatal
dan ditumbuhi gelembung-gelembung air kecik yang super gatal.
Semalam aku dah pergi pusat kesihatan universiti (PKU), dan bila doktor cakap
nak suntik ke tak nak, aku tolak mentah-mentah.
Rela lah sangat sapu krim je dan tahan gatal semata-mata taknak kena suntik. HAHA
Bangun pagi tadi, aku masih rasa gatal amat.
Tengok jari-jemari aku dah jadi gemuk-gemuk belaka, bengkak.
Dalam hati bermonolog, patut ambik suntikan ke tak sebenarnye. Hmm.
Lalu, lepas kelas pukul 2.30, terus pegi PKU. Kali ni doktor perempuan, syukur.
Nak taknak aku ambik jelah suntikan tu. Dengar steroid je, berderau darah aku.
Hahaha. Kesian Kakak Nurse sebab kena bersabar dengan perangai aku.
2, 3 kali aku suruh dia tunggu kejap, sebab aku nak tenangkan diri. Haha.
2 dos dalam satu suntikan. Rasa dia, emm, sedap sangat. Pedih wehh. T^T
Masa balik, aku singgah ambik air dekat Lekir, dah mula high dah.
Nasib tak tumbang dekat situ. Steroid kan sejenis dadah, jadi dia akan menyebabkan kita
pening dan mengantuk. Macam ubat batuk, lepas makan je rasa ngantuk kan?
Jadi, hasilnya sekarang, rasa gatal-gatal aku dah hilang, Alhamdulilah.
Kalau tak, tergaru-garu macam beruklah jadinya aku.
Pesanan dari penaja : Jaga kesihatan diri anda dan ingatlah orang tersayang. hikhik!
p/s: to mr.you-know-who-you-are, many questions keep playing in my minds but I don't have the courage to ask you, and to hear the answer. Pathetic, right? Huhu
Hari ni merupakan hari sentap bagi aku.
Mungkin sebab aku emosional hari ni, tu yang rasa sentap aje.
Pertama, aku sentap sebab aku kena balik awal ke UPM.
Sebab apa? Sebab benda yang aku tak suka buat.
Kedua, masa aku turun bas dekat hentian serdang,
aku nak ambil beg baju aku dekat tempat letak barang dekat bawah.
Manalah aku ingat aku letak dekat mana, lepas tu aku bukak lah satu benda macam kunci,
tunggu pakcik bas tu lambat sangat.
Bila tengok aku tak blah blah baru nak turun tolong.
Tapiiiiii, dia pergi jerit dekat aku, suruh tutup balik benda macam kunci tu.
Eh! Pekedehal pakcik weh! Ingat aku budak-budak ke nak tengking-tengking macam tu.
Tapi aku masa tu senyum je.
Nampak tak betapa sopannya aku?
Ciskek.
Well, I really get easily addicted to korean and japanese dramas, coz they're extremely romantic, and filled with overload cuteness and also crazy scenes that make me laugh out loud like some crazy person. hoho =_='' so recently, I just finished two dramas which are....Playful Kiss and Rooftop Prince! ehehe. I know I know. Playful Kiss had been released long time ago, and I just finished watching it NOW. hihi. Ottoke, I only have it now. Forgive me. huu T^T
Playful Kiss
I like this one coz Oh Ha Ni (main female character) is very determined and no matter how mean Baek Seung Jo (main male character) treated her, she'll never give up her feeling towards him although she's hurt so bad. :( more, I like how Seung Jo started to like her quietly and finally make decision to marry her. hehe. that brat, luckily it's a happy ending story~~
p/s: kim hyun joong oppa is extremely handsome~~ >< hihi
Rooftop Prince
I was waiting for this because few months before it was released, I just finished watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal (SKK Scandal). So, knowing that the lead actor is Park Yoochun, I get really excited to watch it since I really love his acting in SKK Scandal. The storyline is also interesting, generally about the royal crown prince of Jeoson who was lost in the future with his 3 loyal men while being chased by betrayers. The mission that caused them to be stucked in the future is to solved the mystery of the Crown Princess' death. There were conflicts of course, but what I like the most is the scenes where they're tried to adapt with the future, and it so funny and you should watch them by yourself ^_^
Till then, lots of new dramas to be watched !^ ^v hehe
Lagu ni pertama kali aku dengar dalam cerita sepi. Aku paling suka melodi dia yang lembut dan sayu. isk isk T_T. Hatiku turut menjadi sayu. Well, harap korang suka lagu ni gak. hihi enjoyyy~
Hidup ni kena pandai berdikari.
Sebab x semua orang yg ada dengan kita hari ni
akan selamanya dengan kita.
Mungkin mereka pergi mengadap Ilahi,
mungkin juga sebab perkara2 yg kita x pernah duga.
lain org lain cara hidupnya.
kerja mereka bukan nak senangkan hati kita je.
so, ingat-ingatlah.
xyah nak expect lebih sangat lah kan.
nanti sendiri yg kecewa.
these few days, I had been thinking a lot about life.
a serious one. what my past was, and what I'm being through now,
somehow I feel relieved that eventhough my life might be a boring one,
but at least I still have my family and friends around me, for whatever I might be.
someone make me realize, 2 days ago.
that person, B, have a blog and I found it,
as I read through it, I found a shocking story in it and it woke me up to see what life I have now.
I am lucky to wake up every morning remembering all the memories from the past,
knowing all my friends from primary to universities friends,
who my best friends, who I have crush on,
having all the pictures of journeys that I had experienced before in my mind,
rather than wake up and realizing u had lost part of ur life and u can't recalled it.
B's story changed my way in seeing the world.
rather than whining and complaining about a boring life I'm having now,
I try to live my life to the fullest everyday, coz I want to make as many memories as I can
and appreciate all my beloved friends while I can.
B also inspired me to write everything that I experienced everyday,
so that if one day I lost all this, those words can help me to recall all this memories back.
we have to be optimistic in life,
as things sometimes didn't work out like we want it to,
and to always have faith in Allah, no matter how hard ur life.
no matter how painful it is, I don't wanna lose any of my memories.
*I hope B's resolutions, prays and hopes will become true someday :')*