Blessings in Disguise, Maybe?

Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala Berfirman:

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia baik bagimu" (Al-Baqarah, 216)
"Baramgkali kamu tidak menyukai sesuatu, padahal Allah menjadikan padanya kebaikan yang banyak" (An-Nisa, 19)

I've been very fragile lately, crying a lot, everytime I think about my unfinished job, which I tend to procrastinate and in the end put me in problems. It's nearing the D-Day.

I just realize that my mind has a very bad habit, shutting down the whole unit of my body when I faced or given with the job or things I hate.

I know, as a human being, as a muslim, responsibility is a very IMPORTANT thing that you MUST do whatever it takes. It is sinful to just do it idle-ly, or to ignore it completely.

I feel myself changing to a different "me". Ermm, how can I put this in words? Aish, nevermind.

I feel a bit disappointed too tho. The friend that I put hope to see this holiday, perhaps, don't even remember about me. She's hoping for her best-friend to come back after final exams, not me. *I saw it in Facebook*

For some time, I'm thinking, is it me or them, that have problem? Maybe it's me, I guess.

My positive energy has drained out, I can't help but to think pessimistically.

I'm sorry for this negative post. I'm sorry :'(

But, still,  I hope there's blessings in disguise for this part of my life. I will never take any responsibilities that me myself cannot cope up. I wanna live my life in my own way. In Shaa Allah.

Procrastination.

it's been a while..hehe

i feel like updating my blog,

but unfortunately i don't know how 

to write my words..huhu

this week is my busiest week this semester,

(for now)

i have few assignments that supposed to be submitted

next week, and

i haven't start anything yet..=_=''

oh great, thanks to PROCRASTINATE.

and, and

my block have this annually dinner that should be managed 

by first year students, that is JASIRAL.

it stands for Jalinan Silaturrahim Lekiu..hee

and guess who's the manager??

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ME.

yup, it's me...=_=''

oh my, i really2 not experienced on leadership and management thingy...

huuuu, just can't wait for all the stuff to finish.

yay.

p/s: will I? Hope so....